Sunday, July 09, 2006
through the years - kenny rogers
on loop mode now. Yes i think its a brilliant song and yes it brings back memories of my cousin Pat. The one who was my play mate khaki at grans house. The times where we race down grandmas porch with our rusty bikes, crashing into each other. The days we chunk down fishballs before entering into Dad's car after swimming. Her courage, I saulte her for all the times when she had so suffer through the chemo therapy, the needles, the drugs that make her fall into deep hallucination.
2006, yes this year has been a real hard ride for me. First was dad then cousin pat-wu jie. This 2 people who were so dear to me, both whom i respect adore and love so much. I've grown, i know that i am stronger now. The questions to him still exist, the nights where i will hug the bear that dad gave me and pray hard that he will enter into my dreams. The days when i sit down and go "Mel you have grown", "Mel you have to take care of your mummy and sister". Sometimes I wish that i could just take a deep breath and someone says everything will be fine....However with all my friends esp 2 idiots that i love so much. I shall now introduce 2 of my craziest friends, the one that knows me really well, the ones that i will miss dearly when i leave on that jet plane.
Jules & Terri...
Yes my 2 darlings. I give thanks to God for allowing me to have such wonderful friends. The 7 years of friendship still holds strong and frim in my heart. Swollen eyes, tears rolling yes they have seen the worse and best part of me. I thank both of you so so much for this whole year especially. The hours that you spent with me in the hospital, holding me close, providing me with the kleenex tissues telling and giving me all the support. These few months, with your constant support and encouragement has really helped me pull through this whole ordeal. Maybe you 2 nehs nehs dont know, but if you were not there i cant imagine how could i have moved on. This 2 months will be extermly precious with both of you before i see you in like 7 months. I will definetly miss the crapping sessions we have, the laughter, the oooing and awwing at hot korean men, gossiping, and yes spending time with each other. I love you 2 so dearly, sometimes i think many may think we three are lesbos..but yes you 2 are like my crazy sisters. Sometimes i wonder how in the world can the 3 of us hang out together. With different contrasting personalities. One who is so violent always shooting human private parts from her mouth, one who screams at hot guys and a bitty bit blur, one who tells corny dry jokes and complains at restaurants. Well i guess we are like a pyramid, without each other we will just collaspe into dust. Brilliant analogy. Jules the one who never laughs at my jokes and Terri my eating partner i will miss you when i leave for UK.
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